So summer is pretty easy going so far. It has been raining a lot so it is a little bit muddy. Okay a lot muddy and Toby really needs a bath, he is pretty much caked in mud, but it keeps raining and I don’t want to wash him and then send him out into the mud again. Anyway so we finally got satellite internet. The guy was never in when we went in to get it until the other day. We also switched to Dish network instead of DirecTV so now I have DVR in my bedroom and I love it!!! I might get to see a friend that I haven’t seen in 6 years sometime this week or next week I can’t wait I hope we get to see each other. I was hoping Vanna was going to be here also but she can’t come this week because Jared has to work and both of them were going to come down. Anyway nothing has really been happening life here is slow and relaxing…it could be boring depending on who you are, but I am a home body so I don’t mind most of the time. It can get boring, but that is what the internet and T.V. and BOOKS are for. I brought a lot of books with me, but I am finding it hard to get into them, maybe one day this week I will sit down and get into one. I have three books left in my ten book series that I am reading. Anyway that is all that I am going to say for now, maybe I will put in my newest poems.This one is called Cornered. Both were written on the fifth of May

Walls all around
I know He has accepted me
As I am
Broken completely
My fall from grace
Ashamed to seek Him
He found me here
Cornered by sin and shame

He whispered to me
I couldn’t hear
My heart was full
Filled with nothing yet everything
His words to me
Spoken sweetly
Tears stream from my eyes
I know He is right

Like a baby cries am I
I open my scars
He covers them with His wounded hands
Healing from His pierced side
Life returns to my soul
I rejoice in His light
Time stands still
As we embrace

This one is called Dancing.

Just like David did
I am dancing before my King
Doing as He has bid
His beauty deserves worshipping
Jesus, the Master of all
The one I long to love
Hostess of my private ball
Makes me white as a dove
My reason for this dance
He releases my pain
Living totally entranced
Dancing in the rain

Love is blind...

A famous statement…one that I find to be false. I think that love is more critical. When you love someone you notice their flaws more. Things they do may get on your nerves, but you love them and wouldn’t trade them for the world. I think of parents when I think about this. Parents know their children are not the best and they love them unconditionally. I think of my siblings and friends also I love them so much, but I know that they have flaws and since I know them their flaws are more known to me than to others who don’t know them as well. Anyway I was thinking about this the other day and thought I would type about it.
So summer is going alright so far. I have decided to go to St.Lousi this July for the Mission trip instead of going to Rogers for my nephews birth...big decision, but I felt that this is what I need to do. So hopefully I am going to go get highspeed internet tomorrow or saturday....can't wait this dial up is killing me...I can't really do anything...I am suprised that this site even opened up...all I can say is God bless the person who thought of Satellite internet for those of us out in the boondocks!!!...and that's all for now...

"Poetry is what gets lost in translation" -Robert Frost

Life has been pretty good lately. I have been pretty busy with school work since finals are this week. I get to go home for the summer on Friday!!! I am so excited!!! I am getting tired of this place and school...part of me just wants to leave and never come back...but I'm sure a couple weeks at home will cure that longing...So I thought I would put a couple of my poems on today and maybe a couple of pics...





LOVELINESS(10-27-06)
Delicate
A young heart breaks
Tender
With every tear and ache
Broken
Without a prayer
Healing
Breathes in the air
Concern
Always be true
Forgiveness
From who
Faith
Letting go
Courage
Just to know
Honesty
Within a heart
Beauty
From the start
Treasure
In every day
Dancing
Cares go away

BECAUSE OF HIM(12-25-07)
On a winter’s night
Restless eyes awake
Every day a fight
She almost breaks
When she understands
The Father’s here
He’s holding her hands
There’s no need for fear
He always will stand
Wiping her tears
With His loving hands
She finds His cheer
She wants to die
She’s bound to live
She’s going goodbye
Her tears maker her live
She tastes the bitterness
Alive and free
Because of His caress
She can be

ALL OF WHO I AM(11-16-08)
My heart is beating
I feel nervous
I feel your stare
Look up
No one there
Someone is watching
Someone sees my shame
I try to brush it off
I try not to notice
I hear your scoff
What am I doing
Does anyone see
No one can care
No one can tell
All alone, no one to share with
My burden lingers
I am trapped in blame
I am trapped in guilt
You say you’ll forgive
You say you can heal
I want to be forgiven
To not be ashamed
To not be afraid
Of all of me
No one sees
You reach out
I push away
I push away
Further to not hear
All the words you say
I know you’re true
I’ve been here before
I’ve been in this place
All I want to do
Is see your face
Take me
All of me
All of who I am
Me in YOU
YOU I AM