Ah...Life...

Where to begin? Life. Life is so confusing yet it is so wonderful. I hate it yet I love it. I cast it away yet I hold it close. I wish I knew what it will bring yet I want to take joy in the surprise. I want to cry yet I want to laugh. I want to scream yet I want to be silent. I want to be passionate yet I want to be serene. So what brought this on? I don't even know. I've just been thinking about life lately. Where is it going to take me? What am I going to do with it? All of these thoughts and yet I have peace. God has been revealing Himself to me more and more in my everyday study of His Word. I have been relishing in His glory and power! His compassion and mercy! It is so astounding all of the different qualities that He holds and how He chooses to portray them and who He chooses to use for His benefit. It is not for us but for Him. We are nothing and He is everything. He is ALL. It amazes me daily that He cares for me and what have I done? Nothing. I fail His glory everyday, every minute with every breath that I take. I am failing, yet He shows His mercy and forgives me constantly over and over and over. I am useless, yet He uses me. I am nothing but He lives in me making me become ALL. Take Him away and I am nothing. A worthless piece of flesh. Human.