Psalm 22:14-16

I am poured out like water, and all my bones are out of joint; my heart is like wax; it is melted in the midst of my bowels. My strength is dried up like a potsherd; and my tongue cleaveth to my jowls; and thou hast brought me into the dust of death. For dogs have compassed me: the assembly of the wicked have inclosed me: they pierced my hands and my feet.

If all of the raindrops...

were lemondrops and gumdrops...oh what a rain that would be...
Okay so St.Louis was AWESOME!!! Sometimes I wish there were a better word to explain what I am trying to say...maybe one day I'll buy a thesaurus...Anyway so I guess I will start with day one...So Friday morning I arise at 7a.m. and we start to pack things up at the house and eat breakfast and then we(my parents and myself) go up to church to pick up some food to take with us for the cooks to use...and we finally get going around 10...So we get there around 12:30and unload and I go to my room and set up and wait...anyway skip ahead a few hours and skip through the tour and the rules and then we have about an hour and a half to go eat so we are trying to find Arby's but the one we were told to go to was not there it had changed into a financial building...then there was a little fender bender on a side road so JJ needs to back the trailor out of the drive but the cop won't move his car so he has to try and back up with the cop watching his every move...so we get done with all that goodness...anyway Saturday was training day and since I am a leader this year I got to go into the leadership meeting which really was just a time to eat ice cream and evaluate ourselves...then someone pulled the fire alarm...fun...we had to go outside while our ice cream melted...lol...then Sunday finally arrives...the day we get to go out to our mission site and start canvassing...BUT God had other plans...it poured down rain...so we went to Wal*Mart to get supplies that we needed and we were like we might get 4 kids...Monday roles around and we have 41 kids show up...All day I led a team of 6(myself included) out canvassing...and Tuesday we have 133 children show up!!! WE WERE STOKED!!! In all of Global Encounter years they've never had that many kids show up to one site...so we sort of broke a record and we making people at Ferguson excited about their neighborhood...anyway so Tuesday was our free night so we went to the mall since it was raining and we couldn't go to the waterpark...then we went to Red Robins and they sang to Pete for his birthday...then around 2:30a.m. I start having a gall bladder attack I know this because we went in to the hospital and found out that I have gallstones and gastritis...then Wednesday I was half out of it and I would have stayed in bed but I couldn't sleep so I went ahead and went out to our site even though I had missed half the day...then Thursday was parents' night and we had a GREAT day all day...until that afternoon...we had a wreck so half of our people were out and we still had to do the parents' night because we couldn't just not show up...anyway it went awesome...Friday our last day so everyone as sad cause we had to tell all the kids bye and all our friends that we made goodbye...sad day...but Savannah, Jared, and I stayed that night and we went to the Arch and the Zoo on Saturday so that was fun...then we went straight to Cape for Savannah to go to Kenzie's final fitting of her wedding dress so Jayred and I spent that time at the mall...then waited and waited for Vanna to show up...and she finally did with Kenzie and Justin(he came a little bit later) and then we ran into Kenzie's mom, Lori Jones and sister Leah, and I ended up just going home with the Jones' cause I was extremely exhausted cause I had been going for 3 weeks...yeah so a busy week...but now I am home and I had another attack last night so we went to the hospital again cause they said if it happened again to go in...and the doctor here said that he didn't see any stones just the little crystals that are always there...but he said that I was having spasms...that is why I was having pain and vomiting...fun stuff...lol...anyway I am so sleepy so I am ready for bed tonight...

I'm an aunt again!!!

Cole was born on Monday morning around 6:30 and weighed 7lbs 6oz and 19" long. He is so cute!!! I got to hold him for the first time today!!! I had to put on a little gown before I could go in and see him because he is in the NICU. He was breathing to fast after he was born so they had to put him on a ccpap and he was on it for a couple of hours, then that was it, he also had an I.V. in i believe and some other wires, but he got all of that taken off either early this morning or last night. He gets to sleep in my sisters room tonight and will actually be moved into their as soon as the pediatrician has a look at him and gives him the okay and hopefully they will get to go home tomorrow!!!
Anyway just thought I would update about that...

So it's been a while since I have updated with a real update...let's see what have I been up to lately? Well nothing really I have been on the go every day since last Friday but other than that I have been doing nothing. My dad's uncle passed away last Friday so we had to go shopping to get my dad a new suit for the funeral and also for Savannah's wedding...which I think the date is in concrete now for the 5th of December...anyway so the suit we got him on Friday he decided he didn't want so Saturday we went to St.Louis to get a different suit...then of course church Sunday...then we headed to St.Lousi or rather St.Peters on Monday for the viewing then Tuesday was the funeral and afterward we went to my dad's cousins house for the usual after funeral get together lunch...so since we didn't grow up in St.Louis we don't really know everyone that well so Skip and I just kind of sat there making jokes...then we went to visit my dad's cousin from the other side...then we went to see my uncle because he didn't show up for the funeral and wasn't answering his phone...which was fun cause we got to see our cousin and her two kids who are SO adorable!!! Then we had church Wednesday and today we had food pantry and I am so tired from all of the constant going...tomorrow is clean house day so no rest tomorrow...maybe Saturday...Oh yeah and my mom cut my hair Saturday night...about 6 inches off it is a little past my collar bone like to the top of my shoulder blades...it's not that different...and VBS is next week...I am in crafts again but thankfully not in charge again cause I just found out Sunday what I am doing...I was supposed to be a fill-in, which I still will be if they need me somewhere...but that is all for now I am too tired to write more right now maybe another day...

One thing my parents have taught us kids that I love and respect is praying befor taking a trip. Before we go anywhere far away which usually means more than two hours, we pray. It is something that us kids do also. When we go home during a break we always pray or if we go to Jess', we pray. I never really thought about it that much until the other day when we were leaving for fort leonard wood. Just wanted to share that, that's all I have for today.

So summer is pretty easy going so far. It has been raining a lot so it is a little bit muddy. Okay a lot muddy and Toby really needs a bath, he is pretty much caked in mud, but it keeps raining and I don’t want to wash him and then send him out into the mud again. Anyway so we finally got satellite internet. The guy was never in when we went in to get it until the other day. We also switched to Dish network instead of DirecTV so now I have DVR in my bedroom and I love it!!! I might get to see a friend that I haven’t seen in 6 years sometime this week or next week I can’t wait I hope we get to see each other. I was hoping Vanna was going to be here also but she can’t come this week because Jared has to work and both of them were going to come down. Anyway nothing has really been happening life here is slow and relaxing…it could be boring depending on who you are, but I am a home body so I don’t mind most of the time. It can get boring, but that is what the internet and T.V. and BOOKS are for. I brought a lot of books with me, but I am finding it hard to get into them, maybe one day this week I will sit down and get into one. I have three books left in my ten book series that I am reading. Anyway that is all that I am going to say for now, maybe I will put in my newest poems.This one is called Cornered. Both were written on the fifth of May

Walls all around
I know He has accepted me
As I am
Broken completely
My fall from grace
Ashamed to seek Him
He found me here
Cornered by sin and shame

He whispered to me
I couldn’t hear
My heart was full
Filled with nothing yet everything
His words to me
Spoken sweetly
Tears stream from my eyes
I know He is right

Like a baby cries am I
I open my scars
He covers them with His wounded hands
Healing from His pierced side
Life returns to my soul
I rejoice in His light
Time stands still
As we embrace

This one is called Dancing.

Just like David did
I am dancing before my King
Doing as He has bid
His beauty deserves worshipping
Jesus, the Master of all
The one I long to love
Hostess of my private ball
Makes me white as a dove
My reason for this dance
He releases my pain
Living totally entranced
Dancing in the rain

Love is blind...

A famous statement…one that I find to be false. I think that love is more critical. When you love someone you notice their flaws more. Things they do may get on your nerves, but you love them and wouldn’t trade them for the world. I think of parents when I think about this. Parents know their children are not the best and they love them unconditionally. I think of my siblings and friends also I love them so much, but I know that they have flaws and since I know them their flaws are more known to me than to others who don’t know them as well. Anyway I was thinking about this the other day and thought I would type about it.
So summer is going alright so far. I have decided to go to St.Lousi this July for the Mission trip instead of going to Rogers for my nephews birth...big decision, but I felt that this is what I need to do. So hopefully I am going to go get highspeed internet tomorrow or saturday....can't wait this dial up is killing me...I can't really do anything...I am suprised that this site even opened up...all I can say is God bless the person who thought of Satellite internet for those of us out in the boondocks!!!...and that's all for now...